Friends, I think it's high time I admit defeat. It's been a long journey to this point. Five years ago when I sat down and decided to get serious about this writing thing, I was happily oblivious.
Writing was still fun back then. Writing hadn't sapped the joy from everything else yet. Writing hadn't become ONE MORE THING I had to get done in a day. Daily word count goals weren't something to feel guilty about not meeting.
Having a life, interests and hobbies outside of reading and writing weren't something to feel guilty for enjoying.
I'm tired of feeling like a BAD PERSON for not writing. For not reading. I long for the days when reading was a pleasure and a joy, not one more thing I should be doing.
All this to say that I am walking away. Forever? I don't know. It could be forever, it could be for a month or two. Probably at the very least, until next year.
But frankly, I may never write again. Why should I when I'm no good at it, as people are all too fond of telling me.
Crazy busy week last week, but I did manage to get a little bit of work in.
I wrote and revised and rewrote my query for Woven several times in the last week. (I even got a critique on it by an awesomely nice real-live agent.) That'll get revised a couple more times in May before I start querying Woven in June.
Character sheets for the superhero short story I'm working on were created this last week. Those are mostly done. I'll still continue to tweak them and expand them as the days go by. However, I have also started writing the short story. I think you're going to like these characters, friends. Keep your fingers crossed it gets accepted for the anthology I'm submitting it to.
The short story stands just shy of 850 words right now. The first draft is due at the end of the week. (Deadline I set for myself.) I should make it there piece of cake.
First round of revisions are nearly done on the first superhero novella (hereon referred to as RotWR). I'm rewriting the ending so it's more action-packed and stuff which is why it's going a bit slower than it should.
I don't get to go to writer's conferences very often. (I'm still finding my feet in this adult world I've found myself in.) But when I do, I generally come away feeling a mix of super-motivated and overwhelmed-by-my-suckitude.
I shouldn't, but I do.
This past weekend was the annual LDStorymakers conference. I've been to it once before. It's a pretty awesome conference, if I may say so. (Since I have nothing else to compare it to, I may be biased.) This year was just as good (if not a teensy bit better) than when I went two years ago.
Two years ago, I was in the early rounds of revisions on Woven. I'd only finished the manuscript maybe six months before the conference back then. Now it's been through many revisions, a change of POV which required heavy rewriting in sections of the book, and more revisions are to come.
I came away from Storymakers feeling totally inspired and buoyed up in my own abilities and with more confidence in my ability to revise effectively.
There were awesome classes and awesome people. I can't wait to dig into this next set of revisions. I think my favorite class may have been the genre mashup class. It was just plain fun and taught by two very awesome people. (One's a Whovian of some degree! Total win!) But maybe it was the one on creating great villains. Or the one about navigating revisions. (She was not afraid to tell us that crit groups can have their cons alongside the pros. I've definitely been in crit groups that weren't helpful or viable.)
Or maybe it was the one on the author-agent relationship. You get the drift? So many amazing classes. The conference center was jam packed with people all there for the same reason. To learn and improve and grow.
I've set solid deadlines for myself so if you see me goofing off online anywhere, Tsk at me and tell me to get back to work.
The first round of edits on Superhero Novella #1 is nearly done. This first pass was mostly to fox plot inconsistencies, timeline issues, and figure out if certain twists were going to remain in the narrative and as part of the characters.
I say it's nearly done because I ended up deleting about 5400 words at the end of the novella. Now I'm rewriting the ending entirely.
As I surfed the internet the other night, likely procrastinating something really important, I ran across this article in which two or three men list ten superheroes who should get their own movie. Now, let's be honest. That article title should have rightfully read "10 Male Superheroes Who Need Their Own Movie."
There is not a single female hero to be found in that list. Which got me thinking a lot about it. Marvel has announced they're developing a solo Black Widow movie. I'll believe it when I'm sitting in the theater and its opening credits are rolling.
I tweeted about the article and a couple of my followers suggested I write my own list. Which would be great. Except that I've never read a single comic book in my life. How could I write a list when my only knowledge of female superheroes comes from the movies I've watched in the last 14 years?
I know Storm, Jean Gray, Rogue, Black Widow. That's about it. At least for Marvel universe. (Thanks to Lego Marvel Superheroes I could come up with a bigger list.) I have vague recollections of playing superheroes on the playground in elementary school (probably 2nd grade) and always being Black Widow.
My brother had a rather large set of Marvel trading cards which I used to peruse when I was little. Then when the movies started coming out, I would come home from the movies and go through the collection to find the characters we'd just seen on-screen. Through those, my mom and I would educate ourselves on them. Generally, we end up calling my brother and asking him to fill us in on things.
As I've gotten more immersed in the geek world these last couple of years, I've gleaned a teeny bit of knowledge of who some other female heroes might be.
A fleeting idea led to me re-downloading the Marvel app for my tablet. I'd downloaded it ages ago when I found a post on Pinterest where the person had taken screenshots of a new Avengers comic. Screenshots which featured background extras that looked remarkably like Rose, Jack, the Doctor, maybe even Micky and River. I had to buy the comic to verify what I was seeing.
Marvel writers and illustrators are Whovians!
But I never read that comic.
So two nights ago, I thought I'd remedy this gaping hole in my nerd education. I bought a couple of comics and started reading.
And promptly got frustrated because I'm pretty sure I jumped into the middle of storylines, despite seeming to buy the first issue in the first volume. I may have started in the wrong place. But how would I know where to begin in the pantheon of comics available via this app?
I wouldn't. But the internet is rife with horror stories of women being treated poorly or downright heinously upon entering a comic book store. I shudder to think that one poor experience with an app and lack of knowledge would turn me away from comic books forever. However, it just might happen because it's so overwhelming and there's literally no road map.
I read an article the other day listing five video games or franchises that are just begging for a movie. The author included The Legend of Zelda. While I would love a Zelda movie, I'm not convinced it should happen.
Probably the best option, the least of all evils should a movie version of any LoZ title be made, is that the game's script writers create a brand new Zelda story and write it as a screenplay straight off the bat, bypassing the game platform entirely.
Why would this perhaps be the least of all evils? Doing it this way would ensure the story was cohesive start to finish and made sense outside of the gaming world.
Think about it. If Ocarina of Time were adapted to a movie, what story would be told? They'd probably forgo Young Link's adventures through the Deku Tree, Dodongo's Cavern, and Jabu-Jabu's Belly. But that's not right because that's so much of the setup to Adult Link's journeys in the Hyrule of the future.
So if they focus only on Adult Link, where do they focus? How do they incorporate freeing the sages, earning their medallions, and the final fight against Ganon(dorf)? They can't. They'd have to find a way of him freeing the sages, but without it feeling disjointed and like so many superhero sequels that have too many villains.
Now, if Peter Jackson got his hands on Ocarina, and money became absolutely zero object, he could make an 8 movie series, one for each temple and show the entire journey.
But that would never happen.
If any Zelda title were to successfully be adapted to the big screen, Twilight Princess and Skyward Sword are the most likely candidates. I say SS only because Girahim is such an ever-present villain and the one who sets bad guys after Link that he could more easily be made into the film's villain.
TP you've got the single object being searched for and that leads to the villain fights. Which would more easily be adapted to the big screen as well, fitting a standard 3-act structure a bit better.
I'd still be nervous sitting down in the theater no matter what happened if a Zelda movie were ever made.